t's today. You went away a week before Valentines' Day. The saddest thing is, it's not that my valentine is ruined but it's just that you're not around anymore. I wondered what happened to the things that used to be. Everything changed when we went high school. But one thing remained the same, you.
I remembered us trying to be the prince and princess when we were little and growing up loving music together. You'd be singing sweet melodies while I create the perfect tune for your beautiful voice. Remember we used to play pranks on our home-room teacher every April Fools Day and we would get busted for doing those things?
But there was something else wasn't it? You were hiding it with your smile but your eyes told me you were crying. You looked happy when we stood at the edge of the world together. You told me that you would help other people, remember? You'll put a big smile on your face but not for long, you'll put on a long sad frown on your face.
As we grew older, your pain showed. It became obvious but still, you were stubborn to even let me help you. You wanted to prove against the world that you're stronger but you know what, I knew that every step on the way, you became weaker. I wondered if you realized I was always leaning a shoulder for you to cry on, I gave you a helping hand so you'd be able to stand up on your shaking feet. But you never did.
As we went to high school, people told me you were losing grip. My new friends said that you are only a pain to handle but still, I insisted to be with you.
I knew you were in pain; I saw it right through you. You said no one loved you and they don't care; but I always poured out my love to you. You say people looked down on you, but I've always tried to bring you back up. I managed to make you smile but that's not it. You're tired of smiling. You wanted peace.
Remember we spent our summer vacation in Meadow Field*? Were you not in peace? I never asked but you told me you were. Although you're lying, I still believed in you. I don't know why. When I was having my school prom, I decided not to go because I saw you crying alone in the park. You were giving up.
Did you just say you were giving up? Don't tell me you just said that! "Take it back!" I said. But your tears chocked you up and your pain took over your feelings. Then it hit me, you're alone now. No, you ran away from yourself and that is why no one could look for you. I wondered what went wrong? Your family loved you dearly but you said it was all lies. I don't know.
And on the 8th of February, you were already gone. Everyone called your name but you did not answer, you left. Without saying a word. All you left was a piece of papaer saying "I'm sorry" and next to it was a lifeless body. It was smiling to everyone but no one smiled back.
I thought we knew about each other. I guess I just didn't know you. You never shared anyone about your pain or your secrets. After I read your diary, then I regretted. I should've saved you. You were battling with your own demons and I didn't know.
I only have good things about you in my memories although you grew up drowning yourself in your own nightmares.
About your parents, they are trying to help innocent young girl like you to stay strong. I want to thank you for coming in my life. Thank you for showing me what life is about. Thank you, Giselle.
*Fictional settings.
AUTHORS NOTE: UP TO YOU TO DECIDE WHAT REALLY HAPPENED TO THE GIRL. IT'S ALREADY STATED THAT EVEN THE PERSONA DIDN'T KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH HER. THANK YOU. COPYRIGHT!
